10 day into my social media fast…
I have looked at Facebook several times
I have looked at Twitter several times
My justification is “at least I am not responding to posts and tweets.” I am deceiving myself. Just reading things sends my thoughts into so many directions.
But when I am more focused…
I am seeing my inconsistencies, impatience, judgements, procrastinations, fearfulness, excuses, lack of motivation…faith…trust, my words without actions, my thoughtless actions. I am seeing the man I am. I’mm starting to understand.
And I need to be honest with me…
If I do not see this man as part of me and accept him, I will never move beyond this man into who I am truly created to be.
I have reached a point in my life where facade is no longer an option for me. There is a second half of my life to live. I can exist in the shadows and die with a casket full of regret or I can move into the second half living, experiencing, and being fully engaged, being a blessing to others and true to myself.
It is what I want more than anything else.