Wasting Life

I am 60 In October I will be 61 years old. This week I have my one year  CT  scan to make sure the cancer has not returned. I am feeling much regret. I regret not living life open and honest from the beginning when I first realized I was different. I regret lying to … More Wasting Life

Denying Me

For most of my life I have lived as if I am someone else. I have tried to live in a way that would keep people at a distance, keep from getting to know me too well. After all,  it is hard to hide when you get too close to others. I did find, for … More Denying Me

I’m Baaaaaaaaack!

“You have a nodule in your lung.” my doctor commented after a routine chest x-ray revealed a shadow. “Not to worry though, many people have scar tissue in their lungs.” Thus began a eight month journey that I had never expected at the beginning of 2018. Needless to say, I was somewhat anxious but I … More I’m Baaaaaaaaack!

Where I am

  Right now as I sit in this cafe, a multitude of feelings stir inside me I can physically sense them, and there is much in conflict. Below are a few of the more persistent. Anxiety… because almost nothing in my existence is as I imagined it to be. Truth be told,  I never really … More Where I am