Wasting Life

I am 60 In October I will be 61 years old. This week I have my one year  CT  scan to make sure the cancer has not returned. I am feeling much regret. I regret not living life open and honest from the beginning when I first realized I was different. I regret lying to … More Wasting Life

Denying Me

For most of my life I have lived as if I am someone else. I have tried to live in a way that would keep people at a distance, keep from getting to know me too well. After all,  it is hard to hide when you get too close to others. I did find, for … More Denying Me

Looking In

This is how I feel most days. I am an observer. I stand on the outside of a thick windowpane. I see life moving forward and people connecting. I see joy, laughter, peace, and contentment. I behold worshipers connecting with their God, singing their songs of praise and adoration, raising their hands in prayer. I … More Looking In

Silent

God is silent. My few and futile prayers blown  away by cold, winter wind. Never reaching the gilded throne room of my Creator. Do I know that He is there? Of course…most of the time. Have I abandoned by faith? No….but I admit that there is only a little of it. Almost eleven months ago I lost my … More Silent