It begins now.
This is the journey that I have been putting off for many years.
12 years to be exact.
But a cancer diagnosis and the subsequent surgery almost a year ago and the fact that I am 60 years old, has brought the reminder of this to the surface now.
The excuses I have used to “put it off,” and the reasons for keeping myself in the situation no longer support my procrastination. There is nothing new I need to learn, there is no one else that I need to talk t. I have done the work over the last twenty years. I am stunting my own growth, creativity, and freedom.
I need to stop.
I hope to use this platform over the next couple of months to journal this journey. I have to be honest, fear whispers in my ear day and night telling me that if I start out on the journey that there is no turning back and that the path will only be filled with loss, and pain, and rejection. this fear is what has held me back for so long, but I have come to the conclusion that the alternative, is a slow, withering death for the rest of my life. I am no longer comfortable with that,
Please pray for me and send as many positive thoughts my way as you can.
Thank you all.
Musings of a "not so good" Christian 
I pray that your journey be a good and positive one and that the end of your journey bring you to a place of comfort and joy.
Dear Mark, I have missed your musings for a while and did not know you are unwell until now and I am so sorry.
Please think on the following: Many, if not most of your writings have inspired and brought comfort to people all over this world. You write from the heart, often exposing your soul and feelings. You make others think and challenge old beliefs and are never afraid to stand alone for what you believe in.
I do not know if you are on facebook, twitter or any of these other IT communications, so I shall just write here for now. Do not fear this journey ahead, God knows all that is in your heart and loves you – greatly!
I will keep you in prayers, if that is ok, but you will find the path ahead is not thronged with thorns and pot holes but with blossoming flowers and warmth of sun, and as you step out, suddenly, you will be aware that you are not on this journey alone at all. Love is taking you by the hand.