Hide
02/09/2016
As I entered my mid-late teen years my feelings of alienation from others in my school became intense and consuming. I grew to hate many of my contemporaries as nasty, shallow, and repulsive. … More Hide
Loneliness
27/08/2016
As I grew older, time in my forest sanctuary became more limited so I needed to find other ways to hide. I became a master introvert, an expert at building a strong, sturdy facade. … More Loneliness
Words
22/08/2016
There is an idiom that is still popular today. “Sticks and stones may break my bones but names will never hurt me.” I cannot number the times I have heard this. But it is not true. Names, words, can and do hurt. In fact they can destroy a person emotionally, spiritually, psychologically, and in … More Words
What We Focus On
11/08/2016
Here are three lists… The first is what the church (the more conservative Protestant and Catholic, focuses on… The second is what I think God focuses on… The Third is where this blog is going and what I will focus on.. THE CHURCH FOCUS Abortion Supporting LGBT discrimination Supporting gun rights Supporting the death penalty … More What We Focus On
The Burden Of…
16/05/2016
Recently it was brought to my attention that there is a “support group” the Buffalo NY area that is geared toward helping family and friends deal with “The Burden of ….” this particular issue. I find it fascinating that a religiously sponsored group can use the word “burden” to describe another group of people. I … More The Burden Of…
Transitions
11/04/2016
Many of us want our lives to remain static. We want our family to remain static. And we want our churches and nation to remain static. But that is not how life happens. Our children grow up, our friends move away. We lose jobs, find new jobs, passion fades into passivity, interests evolve, faith evolves, … More Transitions
The Ascension of Animus
22/03/2016
But the festering continued, and a large swath of the church began to join these make-believe martyrs making the claim that their rights had been trampled upon. And they prayed for a messiah, and they voted in hope. Yet, the promises of those they trusted fell short time after time. … More The Ascension of Animus
Alienation of the Heart
14/01/2016
I am sitting in front of my computer right now feeling a anxiety, a longing, a pressure on my chest. I want the words to describe the reasons for this, but they are slow in coming. Last night I cried to God. On one hand, I realized that I have been trying to find something … More Alienation of the Heart
My Journal
07/01/2016
Sadness, anger, doubt, loneliness, frustration, determination, failure, more failure, fear (much fear), pepper most of my entries. I have to admit I was somewhat taken aback at the depth of sadness weaving its way through some of my entries. … More My Journal
Why Unconditional Love Matters
16/12/2015
But the common practice was to pretend to be getting more spiritual by trying harder, and getting even more involved. … More Why Unconditional Love Matters
Musings of a "not so good" Christian 