I am sitting in front of my computer right now feeling a anxiety, a longing, a pressure on my chest. I want the words to describe the reasons for this, but they are slow in coming. Last night I cried to God. On one hand, I realized that I have been trying to find something … More Alienation of the Heart
Sadness, anger, doubt, loneliness, frustration, determination, failure, more failure, fear (much fear), pepper most of my entries. I have to admit I was somewhat taken aback at the depth of sadness weaving its way through some of my entries. … More My Journal
But the common practice was to pretend to be getting more spiritual by trying harder, and getting even more involved. … More Why Unconditional Love Matters
As I move in the direction of life altering choice, I have been exposed to the reality of my unbelief as a believer. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart…and He will make your path clear.” God will make everything clear. That is what I have been taught throughout my Christian journey, over and … More The Reality of My Unbelief
As I have traveled this faith journey, I have made some discoveries about myself. Among them has been the realization that I have made choices that have not always been in my best interest, and I have made other choices to protect my fragile heart and ego. I have made choices that have manipulated others … More Hard Choices.
American Christians have been, since President Obama has been in office, ramping up the idea that Christian persecution is on the rise in the USA. To buttress this idea, several events have been pointed to in order to make this claim. The Affordable Care Act “forcing” businesses to pay for contraception and abortion, against said businesses … More Who Is Killing Christianity in America
During my last visit with my Spiritual Director we reviewed the “homework” he had given to me the previous time we had met. That homework was to think about and bring a list of all the negative traits and habits that I have in my life. I was not really wanting to explore this part … More Becoming…