Musings of a "not so good" Christian

The Reality of My Unbelief

08/12/2015

As I move in the direction of life altering choice, I have been exposed to the reality of my unbelief as a believer. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart…and He will make your path clear.” God will make everything clear. That is what I have been taught throughout my Christian journey, over and … More The Reality of My Unbelief

Hard Choices.

01/12/2015

As I have traveled this faith journey, I have made some discoveries about myself. Among them has been the realization that I have made choices that have not always been in my best interest, and I have made other choices to protect my fragile heart and ego. I have made choices that have manipulated others … More Hard Choices.

Who Is Killing Christianity in America

16/11/2015

American Christians have been, since President Obama has been in office, ramping up the idea that Christian persecution is on the rise in the USA. To buttress this idea, several events have been pointed to in order to make this claim. The Affordable Care Act “forcing” businesses to pay for contraception and abortion, against said businesses … More Who Is Killing Christianity in America

Becoming…

12/10/2015

During my last visit with my Spiritual Director we reviewed the “homework” he had given to me the previous time we had met. That homework was to think about and bring a list of all the negative traits and habits that I have in my life. I was not really wanting to explore this part … More Becoming…

Dusty Bones

16/09/2015

I have decided to take a month or so off from most some social media. I would love to say that I have been successful in eliminating Facebook and Twitter since the 1st of September but that would be a lie. Some addictions are hard to master. But as of today I have drastically cut … More Dusty Bones

Looking In

03/08/2015

This is how I feel most days. I am an observer. I stand on the outside of a thick windowpane. I see life moving forward and people connecting. I see joy, laughter, peace, and contentment. I behold worshipers connecting with their God, singing their songs of praise and adoration, raising their hands in prayer. I … More Looking In

Bullied Into The Wilderness

30/07/2015

In 2016 I will have been out of high school for 40 years. Yet in spite of the decades that have seemingly flew by, the residual effects of those years continue to manifest themselves in my life. As I had mentioned last time, fear has been a lifelong companion. It has colored relationships, work, education, … More Bullied Into The Wilderness

Fear, The Great Unmotivator

22/07/2015

I remember very little from my childhood, and the things that I do remember usually have some negative emotion attached to them. Here is a brief list of the things I feared as a child… Spiders, having fallen face first into a orb spider web, Abandonment, every time I heard my parents argue I thought … More Fear, The Great Unmotivator

Wandering

14/07/2015

I am 56. At this point in life I should be pretty well established in a career, in friendships, in purpose. i should be anticipating retirement in a few years. In essence, I should know who I am. But…I don’t. So much of my life has been spent “trying to become”. Whether it was a better … More Wandering

The Other Gospel of “Christamericanity”

07/04/2015

Paul wrote in the book of Galatians these words, “But even if we or an angel from heaven should preach a gospel other than the one we preached to you, let them be under God’s curse!”. These are words that should be noted by American Evangelicalism. What we are propagating is a gospel contrary to … More The Other Gospel of “Christamericanity”