freedom – Musings of a "not so good" Christian

My Journal

07/01/2016

Sadness, anger, doubt, loneliness, frustration, determination, failure, more failure, fear (much fear), pepper most of my entries. I have to admit I was somewhat taken aback at the depth of sadness weaving its way through some of my entries. … More My Journal

Why Unconditional Love Matters

16/12/2015

But the common practice was to pretend to be getting more spiritual by trying harder, and getting even more involved. … More Why Unconditional Love Matters

Bullied Into The Wilderness

30/07/2015

In 2016 I will have been out of high school for 40 years. Yet in spite of the decades that have seemingly flew by, the residual effects of those years continue to manifest themselves in my life. As I had mentioned last time, fear has been a lifelong companion. It has colored relationships, work, education, … More Bullied Into The Wilderness

Nothing But The Blood?!?!?!?

20/10/2014

American Evangelicalism is a funny hybrid of Christianity. On one hand we say we believe the Gospel to “get saved” but on the other hand we live our Christian lives as if it has nothing to do with our relationship with God. We… Seek to have a “closer (walk) relationship” with God, work “to become holy”, strive … More Nothing But The Blood?!?!?!?

Prison Cell of Fear (A Personal Glimpse)

09/06/2014

The young man walked down the quiet tree-lined side street toward the college he attended. As he rounded the corner onto a busy thoroughfare he noticed about half a block away, on the same side of the street as he, several construction men working on the overpass he needed to cross. Instantly, the young man … More Prison Cell of Fear (A Personal Glimpse)

The Things We Want To Say

29/04/2014

I am not sure that there is anyone else ever feels this way, but I must share it to decrease the palpable weight upon my soul. As I sit here thinking about how to write this, my mind races with confusion and, yes fear. You can be around many people every day.. You can have … More The Things We Want To Say

Created To Be

14/04/2014

This is a season of introversion for me. As such, I am examining, once again, my life, and my faith. I saw the musical Children of Eden at the college my daughter attends. It is an interesting interpretation of the creation story and the flood (actually it would make a fundamentalists head explode). See here … More Created To Be

3 Ways The Church Has Emasculated Grace

19/05/2013

Did you know that most churches in America actually discourage embracing the grace of God? Most of them would absolutely deny this, stating that we are saved “by grace” alone. And that is true. But, that is also where most churches stop in teaching the incredible, immeasurable grace of God. And they go out of … More 3 Ways The Church Has Emasculated Grace

Per·se·cu·tion Com·plex…

28/01/2013

…the feeling of being persecuted especially without basis in reality (from the Merriam Webster medical dictionary) The above definition has become the quintessential explanation for modern-day American Evangelical/fundamentalism. And many within this community buy into it without question. The latest example comes from the Town of Cheektowaga (a suburb of Buffalo, NY), where Joelle Silver a Christian teacher in … More Per·se·cu·tion Com·plex…

Called To Bring Dead Things To Life

07/09/2012

I have been thinking a lot about death the last couple of weeks. I have seen first hand how it creeps in and slowly robs vitality, strength, and independence from someone. Like the mythical vampire it sucks away youth and eventually life. Cruelly and without mercy it brings pain and destruction. It works the same … More Called To Bring Dead Things To Life