As I grew older, time in my forest sanctuary became more limited so I needed to find other ways to hide. I became a master introvert, an expert at building a strong, sturdy facade. … More Loneliness
As I move in the direction of life altering choice, I have been exposed to the reality of my unbelief as a believer. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart…and He will make your path clear.” God will make everything clear. That is what I have been taught throughout my Christian journey, over and … More The Reality of My Unbelief
I am 56. At this point in life I should be pretty well established in a career, in friendships, in purpose. i should be anticipating retirement in a few years. In essence, I should know who I am. But…I don’t. So much of my life has been spent “trying to become”. Whether it was a better … More Wandering
Recently, I had a pastor elude that he can tell who is “walking with the Lord”? So I began to think to myself that in the church there seem to be a lot of people who think the same thing. A couple of questions I have then are…How can you tell? Are we suppose to … More Are You “Walking With The Lord”?
American Evangelicalism is a funny hybrid of Christianity. On one hand we say we believe the Gospel to “get saved” but on the other hand we live our Christian lives as if it has nothing to do with our relationship with God. We… Seek to have a “closer (walk) relationship” with God, work “to become holy”, strive … More Nothing But The Blood?!?!?!?
I admit it, I am unbalanced. My moods fluctuate between dark depression and almost happiness. My self-image reflects both despising and exalting self. My actions fluctuate between self-serving egotism and verging on altruistic. My Christian life is a combination of saint and sinner and by far, more in the sinner category than the saint. I … More Unbalanced God
Earlier this week I had the pleasure of being a guest at a Christian festival close to where I live. After having attended several seminars, and a few concerts, I drove away at the conclusion Wednesday evening, confused. The concerts were exceptional, and there was a lot of energy, from both the performers and the audience. The lyrics in the songs … More Schizophrenic Christianity?