As I grew older, time in my forest sanctuary became more limited so I needed to find other ways to hide. I became a master introvert, an expert at building a strong, sturdy facade. … More Loneliness
As I move in the direction of life altering choice, I have been exposed to the reality of my unbelief as a believer. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart…and He will make your path clear.” God will make everything clear. That is what I have been taught throughout my Christian journey, over and … More The Reality of My Unbelief
I am 56. At this point in life I should be pretty well established in a career, in friendships, in purpose. i should be anticipating retirement in a few years. In essence, I should know who I am. But…I don’t. So much of my life has been spent “trying to become”. Whether it was a better … More Wandering
Recently, I had a pastor elude that he can tell who is “walking with the Lord”? So I began to think to myself that in the church there seem to be a lot of people who think the same thing. A couple of questions I have then are…How can you tell? Are we suppose to … More Are You “Walking With The Lord”?
American Evangelicalism is a funny hybrid of Christianity. On one hand we say we believe the Gospel to “get saved” but on the other hand we live our Christian lives as if it has nothing to do with our relationship with God. We… Seek to have a “closer (walk) relationship” with God, work “to become holy”, strive … More Nothing But The Blood?!?!?!?
I admit it, I am unbalanced. My moods fluctuate between dark depression and almost happiness. My self-image reflects both despising and exalting self. My actions fluctuate between self-serving egotism and verging on altruistic. My Christian life is a combination of saint and sinner and by far, more in the sinner category than the saint. I … More Unbalanced God
Earlier this week I had the pleasure of being a guest at a Christian festival close to where I live. After having attended several seminars, and a few concerts, I drove away at the conclusion Wednesday evening, confused. The concerts were exceptional, and there was a lot of energy, from both the performers and the audience. The lyrics in the songs … More Schizophrenic Christianity?
Perhaps it is because I am on a Augusten Burroughs reading frenzy. Perhaps it is because I am out of work, and have a lot of time to ruminate. Perhaps it is because if I don’t do something with all the conflict and angst within me, my head will explode. Perhaps it is part of my … More My Not So Wonderful Life
“Our state is the No. 1 enemy of women” …”rights groups point to a recent spate of high-profile attacks against women to raise the alarm that” this country, “is backsliding on women’s rights.” “They say women’s progress is being undermined…and a” religious “inspired government that is increasingly embracing the conservative values…” “While the… party insists that … More A Woman’s Place…
I am in the process of reading a book by Steve Brown called “Three Free Sins”. It challenges many of the false concepts in Christianity that have become entrenched in Evangelical culture. I will write a complete review when I am done with it. Suffice to say, it will make you think about what you believe … More Really Free?