Lost

Do you know what it feels like to not to know who you are?  Do you know what it feels like to live in fear of being discovered, of being wrong, of not measuring up to standards set by society? I do. I subjected myself to the whim of everyone. Yet, I was a failure … More Lost

Hide

As I entered my mid-late teen years my feelings of alienation from others in my school became intense and consuming. I grew to hate many of my contemporaries as nasty, shallow, and repulsive. … More Hide

What We Focus On

Here are three lists… The first is what the church (the more conservative Protestant and Catholic, focuses on… The second is what I think God focuses on… The Third is where this blog is going and what I will focus on.. THE CHURCH FOCUS Abortion Supporting LGBT discrimination Supporting gun rights Supporting the death penalty … More What We Focus On

My Journal

Sadness, anger, doubt, loneliness, frustration, determination, failure, more failure, fear (much fear), pepper most of my entries. I have to admit I was somewhat taken aback at the depth of sadness weaving its way through some of my entries. … More My Journal

Becoming…

During my last visit with my Spiritual Director we reviewed the “homework” he had given to me the previous time we had met. That homework was to think about and bring a list of all the negative traits and habits that I have in my life. I was not really wanting to  explore this part … More Becoming…

Dusty Bones

I have decided to take a month or so off from most some social media. I would love to say that I have been successful in eliminating Facebook and Twitter since the 1st of September but that would be a lie. Some addictions are hard to master. But as of today I have drastically cut … More Dusty Bones

Wandering

I am 56. At this point in life I should be pretty well established in a career, in friendships, in purpose. i should be anticipating retirement in a few years. In essence, I should know who I am. But…I don’t. So much of my life has been spent “trying to become”. Whether it was a better … More Wandering