bullying – Musings of a "not so good" Christian

September of Silence

01/09/2017

Fear had told me that it would protect me and by hiding me I would be alright. … More September of Silence

3:00 AM 9 November 2016 Suddenly I am awake. Having gone to sleep around 10 pm the previous night, I awake with a feeling of dread. I went to sleep without turning on the election results because I knew. I just knew. I get … More No Longer Evangelical

Lost

12/09/2016

Do you know what it feels like to not to know who you are? Do you know what it feels like to live in fear of being discovered, of being wrong, of not measuring up to standards set by society? I do. I subjected myself to the whim of everyone. Yet, I was a failure … More Lost

Bullied Into The Wilderness

30/07/2015

In 2016 I will have been out of high school for 40 years. Yet in spite of the decades that have seemingly flew by, the residual effects of those years continue to manifest themselves in my life. As I had mentioned last time, fear has been a lifelong companion. It has colored relationships, work, education, … More Bullied Into The Wilderness

Fear, The Great Unmotivator

22/07/2015

I remember very little from my childhood, and the things that I do remember usually have some negative emotion attached to them. Here is a brief list of the things I feared as a child… Spiders, having fallen face first into a orb spider web, Abandonment, every time I heard my parents argue I thought … More Fear, The Great Unmotivator

Ignorance Is Not A Spiritual Gift

14/08/2014

The lament rises from church platforms and pews all over America, “Why do they hate us so much? All we are doing is loving them by telling them the truth!” Stop for a moment! Let me ask you a question. Have you ever gotten mad at someone for telling you the truth? The latest brouhaha … More Ignorance Is Not A Spiritual Gift

My Not So Wonderful Life

08/05/2012

Perhaps it is because I am on a Augusten Burroughs reading frenzy. Perhaps it is because I am out of work, and have a lot of time to ruminate. Perhaps it is because if I don’t do something with all the conflict and angst within me, my head will explode. Perhaps it is part of my … More My Not So Wonderful Life

The Silence Of The Church

27/09/2011

“You’re here to defend the defenseless, to make sure that underdogs get a fair break” Ps 82:3 Jamey Rodemeyer… 14 years old Buffalo, NY Tyler Clementi… 18 years old Rutgers University Phoebe Prince… 15 years old Massachusetts These are the names of just three students from 2010-2011 that have ended their lives because of relentless harassment … More The Silence Of The Church

The Lord Jesus & Lady GAGA

05/03/2011

Last night I went to church. It was an amazing service. Thousands of people filling the auditorium. There were younger and older, male and female, some dressed up, and some in jeans and tee shirts singing and dancing, raising their hands high above their head. Everyone accepted everyone else, just as they were. The service was filled with ambiance, … More The Lord Jesus & Lady GAGA