christianity – Musings of a "not so good" Christian

Becoming…

12/10/2015

During my last visit with my Spiritual Director we reviewed the “homework” he had given to me the previous time we had met. That homework was to think about and bring a list of all the negative traits and habits that I have in my life. I was not really wanting to explore this part … More Becoming…

Fear, The Great Unmotivator

22/07/2015

I remember very little from my childhood, and the things that I do remember usually have some negative emotion attached to them. Here is a brief list of the things I feared as a child… Spiders, having fallen face first into a orb spider web, Abandonment, every time I heard my parents argue I thought … More Fear, The Great Unmotivator

Are You “Walking With The Lord”?

11/01/2015

Recently, I had a pastor elude that he can tell who is “walking with the Lord”? So I began to think to myself that in the church there seem to be a lot of people who think the same thing. A couple of questions I have then are…How can you tell? Are we suppose to … More Are You “Walking With The Lord”?

I Don’t Understand Eternal Torment (aka Hell) Scene 1

08/12/2014

She lived in a large city in some developing country somewhere. She was 13 years old. She shared a small one room living space with 11 other girls ranging in age from 6 to 14. She got to eat a bowl of rice once every two days. She was always hungry, always lonely, always scared. For the first three years she … More I Don’t Understand Eternal Torment (aka Hell) Scene 1

Ignorance Is Not A Spiritual Gift

14/08/2014

The lament rises from church platforms and pews all over America, “Why do they hate us so much? All we are doing is loving them by telling them the truth!” Stop for a moment! Let me ask you a question. Have you ever gotten mad at someone for telling you the truth? The latest brouhaha … More Ignorance Is Not A Spiritual Gift

What I (And You) Don’t Know About God

11/08/2014

There are hundreds of thousands of Evangelical Americans running around telling you, me, and a whole lot of other people what God is like, what He has done, who He is going to judge, and how it all ends. But here is the truth…no one really has absolute knowledge of any of it. And when we try … More What I (And You) Don’t Know About God

Selfish Or Self-Care

08/08/2014

A friend of mine told me yesterday that I need to take care of myself. This after about 50 minutes of complaining to him about the church. my job, my family life, and my life in general. In each of the situations he asked me what I am going to do to change things. and honestly I … More Selfish Or Self-Care

I Do Not Hate The Homos

27/06/2014

The other day I was perusing through Yahoo News and came across an article discussing our Vice President’s speech concerning the rights of LGBT people and how imperative it was for America to be at the forefront of protecting individuals in the gay community around the world. I felt that what he had to say … More I Do Not Hate The Homos

What I Wish…

25/06/2014

When Jesus came to establish God’s Kingdom on earth, it was meant to be radically different from any human kingdom. The Kingdom of God was meant to shatter the pride and arrogance of those that thought that they were better than anyone else. It was established to level the playing field between the socially acceptable, … More What I Wish…

Prison Cell of Fear (A Personal Glimpse)

09/06/2014

The young man walked down the quiet tree-lined side street toward the college he attended. As he rounded the corner onto a busy thoroughfare he noticed about half a block away, on the same side of the street as he, several construction men working on the overpass he needed to cross. Instantly, the young man … More Prison Cell of Fear (A Personal Glimpse)