Well after a couple of weeks of illness and life I can finally continue on this quest to find…something.
It used to be so easy when I first became a “born again”. Everything was so black and white. Secular music was “the devil”, Hollywood was filled with anti-Christian bigots producing smut and lies, so going to the movies was out because, “What if Jesus came back while I was sitting in a movie theater?” Worldly books and magazines were not honoring to God and filled my mind with useless information. Having a job was a good thing since it paid bills but what I did at church had much more of an eternal impact, and being a missionary or a preacher was the highest calling one could have.
Then of course there were the black and white social issues and there were really only three that really matter to the world of “Christendom”… Abortion, for any reason, was murder…homosexuals were evil perverts out to convert my kids to the sodomite lifestyle and AIDS was God’s judgment…and all good Christians were also very patriotic (and republican too).
Christians back in those first days of my conversion seemed to have all the answers, and stood for what was right and true and holy and just. The Bible was inerrant, Jesus was coming back in the style of the movie “Distant Thunder” or Tim Lahayes’ “Left Behind”. And there was only one right way to look at Scripture.
I now see that I was lied too.
If God is God then music is a gift from Him and there may be truth and beauty in music that does not sing “Jesus” in every verse. If God is God then there are movies that communicate real truth about life and relationships and emotions without having a guy running around in a robe and sandals. If God is God then there are authors that can write about things that are true without quoting a passage if scripture in the margin. If God is God then all work is holy, all work is important. If God is God then His concern for the world is not just limited to abortion, homosexuality, and the republican party (which does NOT speak for God at all). What about poverty, social justice, and the environment?
I have found out that there are several ways of looking at Scripture, and not all of them are heretical. I have also found out that there are some things that you cannot answer completely when it comes to the Bible such as why are there two creation stories, why did God kill kids and women, why did He condone marriage to multiple partners, and why does it seem that the Bible at times portrays two very different deities? And why does He seem so silent?
What I have found out is that there are no easy answers, but there are people in the church that want to have all the answers so they pretend. And the masses of followers hang on to their every world and never question.
Oh, for the days of ignorant faith.